Last night
my mother and all my family find out that all of our house and its people had been cursed.
No wonder we all are so messed up.
We bring along a woman who can fix those things.
I want to believe but a part of my heart still curious and wonder it is really true?
I had been told of many kind of supernatural things.
Sometimes i want to believe.
But i wish i can experience the supernatural phenomenon myself.
I dare who ever can show me all those things.
I am not afraid at all.
I wanna explore more about this field.
I want to know how the black magic works.
My mind keep searching for this mysteries.
I want to blow up and learn more about this things.
So what if i wanna met ghost, demons, angels, or even what lies beyond the human rational thoughts.
Please i really wanna know.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
I am Going to AsyLum
I dunno what is happening.
Sometimes feel so empty,
When it is happened,
I found a lot of imaginary things.
I have my own imaginary girlfriend.
And she coming back to me after 3years.
Its happened after 3days she had been gone.
I also like to create all my dreams.
When i created them as a dream i want to,
I slept and never felt want to come back to reality.
Sometimes i think it is better there's a demon girl or anything supernatural take me to their world.
I am sick of the reality world.
The original world which full of hatred, tormented souls and lies.
I hate all mankind, humanity.
What is happening? I keep wonder.
Sometimes feel so empty,
When it is happened,
I found a lot of imaginary things.
I have my own imaginary girlfriend.
And she coming back to me after 3years.
Its happened after 3days she had been gone.
I also like to create all my dreams.
When i created them as a dream i want to,
I slept and never felt want to come back to reality.
Sometimes i think it is better there's a demon girl or anything supernatural take me to their world.
I am sick of the reality world.
The original world which full of hatred, tormented souls and lies.
I hate all mankind, humanity.
What is happening? I keep wonder.
Stuck Deep Inside The Darkness
Shall i show how thou name was graven on my heart?
Shall i tell thou what is happening since the day thou abandon me?
All the pain that i suffered before,
came back haunted me.
This soul is torment,
This life is empty,
This heart is bleeding,
I'm lost,
I'm suffer,
I'm stuck down deep inside this darkness.
This pain is going to cling forever,
This soul is going to torment forever,
This heart is going to bleed forever,
This life is going to be empty without thou.
I'm waiting,
I'm searching,
I'm clinging,
Waiting for thou love that never been showed.
As long as i'm alive, I will stuck in this darkness,
This sorrow had devoured me.
I cant feel the light since thou gone.
Torment.
Shall i tell thou what is happening since the day thou abandon me?
All the pain that i suffered before,
came back haunted me.
This soul is torment,
This life is empty,
This heart is bleeding,
I'm lost,
I'm suffer,
I'm stuck down deep inside this darkness.
This pain is going to cling forever,
This soul is going to torment forever,
This heart is going to bleed forever,
This life is going to be empty without thou.
I'm waiting,
I'm searching,
I'm clinging,
Waiting for thou love that never been showed.
As long as i'm alive, I will stuck in this darkness,
This sorrow had devoured me.
I cant feel the light since thou gone.
Torment.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
I am still in love with you
Rayhan,
There're a lot of things i wanna tell u.
I am so in love with you since we get to know during Ramadan.
Yeah i admit it is too early.
Trust me, my love for you is purely sincere.
I have a crush for you since we in school at smkCp.
After i have done my SPM, we lost contact.
I never forget you but i dunno how to cntct u since there.
My stayed in Sabah bring you back to me.
Yes i am so thankful for that to happened.
You are the only reason i keep in my mind when i started to feel regret for not continuing my studies.
Sometimes, i hate myself for loving you so deeply.
Yeah i am always missing you.
i am always thinking about you.
and i cant get you out of my mind.
That's make me really hate myself.
I know you want your time.
your space to achieving your Dreams.
But it is hard to you to think about me a bit?
Yeah i am you boyfriend and you full time lover.
Although you think it is over after a week,
but for me it's not.
Coz we are not declared it is over.
I am still your boyfriend.
I try to understand your situation.
I try to understand your problem.
But is it hard for you to understand my feelings?
At least show me that you care.
It is enough for me.
Sighs im tired.
But yes i am still waiting and just keep waiting.
Bcoz i never forget our promise.
You are the one and only.
My heart is totally into you.
But do you?
The least i can do is praying to god to make you are mine.
I know we are much too far away.
And it's hard to make the relationship goes well.
I am trying to be the best boyfriend to you.
The best boyfriend and lover in your life.
There're so many things that i cant describe.
It is bleeding all inside my heart.
Rayhan, pls come back to me.
I need you to complete my dreams.
I will waiting for you no matter how long it takes.
There're a lot of things i wanna tell u.
I am so in love with you since we get to know during Ramadan.
Yeah i admit it is too early.
Trust me, my love for you is purely sincere.
I have a crush for you since we in school at smkCp.
After i have done my SPM, we lost contact.
I never forget you but i dunno how to cntct u since there.
My stayed in Sabah bring you back to me.
Yes i am so thankful for that to happened.
You are the only reason i keep in my mind when i started to feel regret for not continuing my studies.
Sometimes, i hate myself for loving you so deeply.
Yeah i am always missing you.
i am always thinking about you.
and i cant get you out of my mind.
That's make me really hate myself.
I know you want your time.
your space to achieving your Dreams.
But it is hard to you to think about me a bit?
Yeah i am you boyfriend and you full time lover.
Although you think it is over after a week,
but for me it's not.
Coz we are not declared it is over.
I am still your boyfriend.
I try to understand your situation.
I try to understand your problem.
But is it hard for you to understand my feelings?
At least show me that you care.
It is enough for me.
Sighs im tired.
But yes i am still waiting and just keep waiting.
Bcoz i never forget our promise.
You are the one and only.
My heart is totally into you.
But do you?
The least i can do is praying to god to make you are mine.
I know we are much too far away.
And it's hard to make the relationship goes well.
I am trying to be the best boyfriend to you.
The best boyfriend and lover in your life.
There're so many things that i cant describe.
It is bleeding all inside my heart.
Rayhan, pls come back to me.
I need you to complete my dreams.
I will waiting for you no matter how long it takes.
Frm PeNaNg to K. Kinabalu
Sorry coz im lazy to update this blog since i left Marriot.
There's so much things happened after that until i have no idea how to share with all of you.
The truth is i have extend my semester bcoz one decision i have made when im going to Penang.
Its changed my life, my path, my experiences to life and my dreams.
Its really make me learned a lot. Thanks Joe for all of this experiences that i cant get from anywhere else.
During my stay in Sabah, i have learned and got experiences from the way i am not expected. I have see so many things, i have met so many problems, and not to forget, i am also enjoying myself there and making new friends.
All the memories in Sabah were never be forgotten by me.
The things that i have met and have a crush on Sabahan girl, named HELENA.
She's a nice girl but a little bit freaked out when meet someone new.
I dunno but its really hard to get close to her.
Sabah is a nice place to stay when we know how to manage ourselves. There were so many things you can get in Sabah. So its up to you to take it what is good and what is bad for you.
Ichaa and Jane, Thanks for your staying with me more than a week period. They are good friends to know and thought me a lot of things.
Finally, the most reason i have no regret to extend my study for a sem in Sabah because of one girl that changed my life forever. I have known her since i was in SmkCP. We lost contct after that. But God bring us to meet each other again. She is the reason why i am happy in Sabah. Yeah we went out like 3 to 4 times but that's a sweetest memories i ever have. Rayhan, i am truly fall in love with her. And my mission go to Sabah to find love accomplished. There will no other girl comes after her. This feelings will never been the same.
Joe, Aming, Uncle and Auntie. Thanks for your accomodation, transport and meals during my staying there. It was a lot of help i have from my beloved family apart of my true family. Thanks all of you for bringing me all over places, show me Sabah and i will never ever forget you guys. You guys like my own family to me.
I will go to Sabah later. Just wait me.
Sorry i have no pictures to attach due to my lost camera in Sabah. However, it's ok becoz all of the memories i have captured and keep safely on my mind.
There's so much things happened after that until i have no idea how to share with all of you.
The truth is i have extend my semester bcoz one decision i have made when im going to Penang.
Its changed my life, my path, my experiences to life and my dreams.
Its really make me learned a lot. Thanks Joe for all of this experiences that i cant get from anywhere else.
During my stay in Sabah, i have learned and got experiences from the way i am not expected. I have see so many things, i have met so many problems, and not to forget, i am also enjoying myself there and making new friends.
All the memories in Sabah were never be forgotten by me.
The things that i have met and have a crush on Sabahan girl, named HELENA.
She's a nice girl but a little bit freaked out when meet someone new.
I dunno but its really hard to get close to her.
Sabah is a nice place to stay when we know how to manage ourselves. There were so many things you can get in Sabah. So its up to you to take it what is good and what is bad for you.
Ichaa and Jane, Thanks for your staying with me more than a week period. They are good friends to know and thought me a lot of things.
Finally, the most reason i have no regret to extend my study for a sem in Sabah because of one girl that changed my life forever. I have known her since i was in SmkCP. We lost contct after that. But God bring us to meet each other again. She is the reason why i am happy in Sabah. Yeah we went out like 3 to 4 times but that's a sweetest memories i ever have. Rayhan, i am truly fall in love with her. And my mission go to Sabah to find love accomplished. There will no other girl comes after her. This feelings will never been the same.
Joe, Aming, Uncle and Auntie. Thanks for your accomodation, transport and meals during my staying there. It was a lot of help i have from my beloved family apart of my true family. Thanks all of you for bringing me all over places, show me Sabah and i will never ever forget you guys. You guys like my own family to me.
I will go to Sabah later. Just wait me.
Sorry i have no pictures to attach due to my lost camera in Sabah. However, it's ok becoz all of the memories i have captured and keep safely on my mind.
Friday, April 23, 2010
end of practical.
at last, the damn practical was done.
i'm feeling so thankful.
of course there were so many sweet n bad memories i've there.
i get to know shahfeeqa, a girl that stole my heart before she left the hotel.
i have my own family, such else mr fadzil, the lobby lounge manager. he likes my father to me.
i dont forget miss umi, who likes the young mother to me that always take care of me.
and also i'll never forget my lovely elder sister, rina who have once save me from the jealous guy. without her, i dont knw what will happen to me.
a lot of thanks to farah, younger sister of rina who giv me hope and reason to leave again. although she dont make me as her bf but it is enough for me when she treated me like her good friend.
all the memories there i'll never forget till the end.
after this, a lot of work to do.
a lot of plan to do to achieve my dreams.
good luck zen!
thanks to all friends and families who ever are supporting me so much.
love u all!
i'm feeling so thankful.
of course there were so many sweet n bad memories i've there.
i get to know shahfeeqa, a girl that stole my heart before she left the hotel.
i have my own family, such else mr fadzil, the lobby lounge manager. he likes my father to me.
i dont forget miss umi, who likes the young mother to me that always take care of me.
and also i'll never forget my lovely elder sister, rina who have once save me from the jealous guy. without her, i dont knw what will happen to me.
a lot of thanks to farah, younger sister of rina who giv me hope and reason to leave again. although she dont make me as her bf but it is enough for me when she treated me like her good friend.
all the memories there i'll never forget till the end.
after this, a lot of work to do.
a lot of plan to do to achieve my dreams.
good luck zen!
thanks to all friends and families who ever are supporting me so much.
love u all!
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
The Girl that Stole my Heart
I've met her at the MArrioTT Putrajaya the place that i'm doing my practical right now.
SHe is really nice.
I really like her.
But I'm afraid that i will fall for her just like i fall for all the girls before.
Last night, I've done crazy thing with her since i'm not doing any crazy things for the last 4 years.
She callled me in the middle of the night and asked me out.
Without thinking the risk,
I started my engine and went to pick up her at hotel.
During that time, i just returned back home not more than 50 mints.
I was driving around KL and we stopped to eat at A&W
We hanging out until 3 o clock in the morning.
That was a happiest moment i with her.
Even the period was short but i don't regret it.
I'm not thinking of anything even tomorrow i need to go to work.
After her brother called her, and pick up her,
she left.
Sometimes i'm thinking to marry her in the future.
CAn i?
Only Gods now.
^_^
SHe is really nice.
I really like her.
But I'm afraid that i will fall for her just like i fall for all the girls before.
Last night, I've done crazy thing with her since i'm not doing any crazy things for the last 4 years.
She callled me in the middle of the night and asked me out.
Without thinking the risk,
I started my engine and went to pick up her at hotel.
During that time, i just returned back home not more than 50 mints.
I was driving around KL and we stopped to eat at A&W
We hanging out until 3 o clock in the morning.
That was a happiest moment i with her.
Even the period was short but i don't regret it.
I'm not thinking of anything even tomorrow i need to go to work.
After her brother called her, and pick up her,
she left.
Sometimes i'm thinking to marry her in the future.
CAn i?
Only Gods now.
^_^
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