LoNeLiNesS in My HeArT

"maybe this is my destiny, LoVe someone without being LOvE"

this some of the lyrics taken from one of Indonesian band's song called "Cinta Dalam HAti by ungu"
I'm not trying to attract attention from people but this is exactly happened to me.
I cant help it and cant take it but this is the truth that i have to face with.
I'm always fall in love with someone without being love from that person.
I dont know what's wrong but i'm always had been left heart broken before she even notice that she is hurting me.
Sometimes i'm wondering why this is always happened to me?
Why i cant get love from the one that i love?
It is sometimes feel like i had been cursed.
It's hurting me from inside and i think my heart is slowly dying because of this.
I dont want nothing except running the ordinary happy life with my love one just like everyone else.
I dont understand why i cant make the girls that i love happy?
SOmetimes i blamed myself for this.
Sometimes i feel so stupid because i know it wont work but i try harder and harder.
Now i just leave it to GOD to set up my love life.
I'm sick of it.
I LOve you BUT WHY u CanT love me dear?
what to say..Love IS BLIND and CAnT be Forced

*sighs*